❰ there's a buzz across her skin at the admittance. it feels semi-freeing to finally acknowledge the return of her memories, but also...dangerous. facing reality all over again. but this will be another secret she'll share with wei wuxian, whether or not he stays as silent about his own circumstance ❱
( dead. she's dead. whether or not she's here and alive doesn't change the fact that now she can't go back. she'll never again get to live free of the puppeteering of these technicians, this borrowed life away from her husband and her son. and he's the one who stole that from her. )
and acheng hates me and i can't stand it. none of it was supposed to be like this
❰ what is done is done. she herself made a certain choice that brought upon her own demise. in her mind, pulling at the thread and following it backwards to cast blame on this decision and that one...the entire would would be at fault for everything.
and what does it matter now, now that they are all alive, all sentient and able to start anew? ❱
nothing here is ruined, a-xian. what has happened in a world outside of this one
does it really impact what and who we are, in this moment?
we have been given a blessed opportunity. to be together again and alive. a-cheng may harbor some feelings of resentment for past actions, but he too should look at what a gift we have been given.
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what do you think there is to fix?
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i ruined everything and now you're
( dead. she's dead. whether or not she's here and alive doesn't change the fact that now she can't go back. she'll never again get to live free of the puppeteering of these technicians, this borrowed life away from her husband and her son. and he's the one who stole that from her. )
and acheng hates me and i can't stand it. none of it was supposed to be like this
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and what does it matter now, now that they are all alive, all sentient and able to start anew? ❱
nothing here is ruined, a-xian. what has happened in a world outside of this one
does it really impact what and who we are, in this moment?
we have been given a blessed opportunity. to be together again and alive. a-cheng may harbor some feelings of resentment for past actions, but he too should look at what a gift we have been given.